Alid Misli | Brunei Educator

Microsoft Certified Educator on Life & Digital Lifestyle

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<blockquote class=”twitter-tweet” data-lang=”en”><p lang=”en” dir=”ltr”><a href=”https://twitter.com/hashtag/theAccountant?src=hash”>#theAccountant</a> is beautiful. <a href=”https://twitter.com/hashtag/BenAffleck?src=hash”>#BenAffleck</a> is scary.</p>&mdash; Alid Misli (@AlidMisli) <a href=”https://twitter.com/AlidMisli/status/790205395503489025″>October 23, 2016</a></blockquote> <script async src=”//platform.twitter.com/widgets.js” charset=”utf-8″></script>

 

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Losing the dream battle. An education battle.

Loving, kindness and compassion are the basis of wise, powerful, sometimes gentle, and sometimes fierce actions that can really make a difference – in our own lives and those of others. – Sharon Salzberg

#Love, #kindness and #compassion. The last 72 hours was like #hatred, #anger and #cold. One of many reason is to work in the city to be safe and manageable in both financial and physical health aspects to enroll to night classes and god’s knows I really need it badly. #Learning is core in my #passion, as to #teaching is my job. #Education itself is #beautiful. As human, #happiness and conditions affect what you do, think and feel. I’m sure there are far worst terrible things that other human faces compare to me. However, it is my utmost dreams since 19 years old to #dream to be smart, #educated to make #Brunei education stronger and #effective like those lecturers I met in my years in #UBD. My dream is to be like them. What separate me from doing what they do is my qualifications. Soon, I’ll be 29. And I know, I won’t be able to achieve that dream as age of 35 is the limit age to get Phd scholarship. Having no bachelor degree and a master degree it is a chase that I have to anticipate losing. With that mental state and the lost i have to walk through; i hope others will respect my sadness, depression and rudeness during this time. It was designed far before I was born and it is my fate. Many new obstacles yet to face, going through like ordinary people. #notbornich#notbornintelligent #justordinary

Wanting

Like a tantrum inside; to get out from this place. Qualification and money are keys to set out from here. The wanted life and living.” #perspective

Feeling disappointed and unsatisfied. Always have been. Dreams can be a dangerous game. Everyone around me seem to settle. Me, I’m still chasing, still crashing.. Sadly, opportunity does not seems in favour of my side until this very day. I really wish to runaway from this life.

Wishing to be someone else. Wishing to be those people who don’t requires a lot of psychological needs. It’s a hard thing to not wanting it nor trying to forget it. The brain somehow continue in loop, programming it, telling you that you need it badly to be happy, to feel satisfied and be accomplished.

Do I like my life? Nope. Can it be change? Maybe. Precisely with past mediocre education/qualification and not enough money to chase the dream to change this life will be sadly hard.

I’m sad, will always be sad. Worked hard too. Yet recognition, opportunity to study again for the government in-service is practically scarce.

“I really wish my parents are super rich.” That sentence do revisit across over some time. “I wish I won a lottery.” This too.

I do not need a Ferrari. All I ever wanted was a higher Education. An education that take place oversea. England is the place to be. I also wish to work elsewhere.

I’m ambitious. I don’t drink, smoke, do weeds or drugs. But, I’m also a nobody. I do get jealous as others can swiftly gain their dreams. So, I ask, “When will it be my turn?

I am Executive!

Executive

Executive Everything is under control.

You are honest and decisive with an inborn leadership. You can rapidly notice the methods and procedures which are illogic and inefficient. You can continuously add and develop a new system to solve the organizational problems. You like to make a long term plane for yourself and genuinely accomplish it. You are well informed with a large horizon. You also would like to express your thoughts to other people.

ENTJ Celebrity: Napoleon Bonaparte, Emperor

Notice: the purpose of this test is to find your inborn tendencies. It is similar to asking if you area right-handed or left-handed. The percentages in the figure only stands for how sure you are about whether you are right-handed or left-handed when you take the test. Each individual has their own character tendency. Some of the tendencies may be obvious, but some may not. Once your character type is confirmed, the percentages are not so important. There is no saying that I am 80% introverted, just as you cannot say I am 80% left-handed. There is no good or bad characteristics. Knowing yourself is not for labeling yourself, but for developling your advantages and controlling your disadvantages.

Introversion I or Extroversion E – You can get your energy from where you focus your attention.

Your are Extroverted Tendency, that concerned about how you influence the outer environment: concentrating your psychological forces and attention on the outer world and communication with other people and like meeting, discussion and chatting.

people different from you are Introverted Tendency, that concerned about how the changes of the outer environment influence yourself: concentrate your psychological forces and attention on your inner world, and focus on your inner experience, thinking, idea and emotion. You prefer to think independently and read.

Sensation S or Intuition N – What will you notice more when you receive and perceive the information from the surrounding world.

Your are iNtuition Tendency, that like abstract theories and principles. You are concerned with the entirety of things and the tendency of change and development. You are concerned about inspiration, imagination and creativity. You like implication, analogy, connections, possibility, inference and prediction.

people different from you are Sensing Tendency, that are conerned about the detailed information gained through sense perception: things that you see, hear, smell, taste and touch. You notice details and descriptions more. You like to use and develop the skills you already have.

Thinking T Or Feeling F – How do you make decisions.

Your are Thinking Tendency, that pay attention on the logic relationships among things. You like to evaluate and make decisions through objective analysis. You are very rational, objective and fair. You think principles are more important than being flexible.

people different from you are Feeling Tendency, that attach the most importance to the feelings of yourself and other people. The value and harmony will be your standard for evaluation.You are very sympathetic, kind, friendly and considerate. You always think about how your your behavior will effect the feelings of other people.

Judging J or Perceiving P – How do you organize and design life.

Your are Judging Tendency, that like to make judgements and decision. You like to make plans and would like to manage, control and drive for the results. You focus on accomplishing the task. In your daily life, you hope your life is organized, step by step and respect the timeline.

people different from you are Perceiving Tendency, that need to collect more information before you make a decision. So you try to understand and adapt. You focus on process and change your goals based on the information changes. You always allow for unforeseen circumstances in your daily life. You like a loose and free life style, which may be bit disordered.

Ge your psychometric test here! http://www.arealme.com/16types/en/

A Vocational Personality Radar Test

Depression – It doesn’t go away.

I had it since my late teen. It doesn’t go away.

Depression is a constant sadness, emotionally.

Depression is when people around you got shocked when you suddenly become fat or thin.

Depression doesn’t help you to sleep.

Depression is when you feel there is no purpose in living.

The irony is that, how you thought you want it to go away or erase it, you still got it. It does come back, in sec, hour, days, weeks, months or years.

When I first got it; for my many nights, or even afternoon my pillow will become soak wet from the random tears. You feel torture just thinking about something and eventually crying it out helps to stop the nonsense and helps you get sleep.

How did I survive without therapy and drugs? Well, at one point you did confess you want to die to your best bud. But, I think He doesn’t take it too seriously. Don’t blame him, being a random person doesn’t makes people take me seriously. But, I was deadly serious. But it does feel good to confess that you wish to die. Just like a movie.

Why am I still here? Pretty much the credit goes to my faith. It is good to have religion. I guess , any religion. I’m a muslim btw. Religion helps to think about reasons, love, sins, heaven and hell. Honestly, that is the only reason why I’m still here (alive).

Living with it, everyday? I design my living. The danger comes when I’m all alone and have nothing to do. So, I like to keep myself busy. I cook. I do read books. I read cooking books. I read biography to seek how people live their lives. I read Psychology magazine a lot! I have a collection of psychology academic books, to get a glimpse of how (my) brain works. But, honestly, I still have no clue how it works. I like to plan things in advance. I’m a structure person. Planing helps me to be busy in my mind too. I like instructional design on things. If I want to travel to someplace new, I’ll be planing it for years. I do get pleasure of planing it. Traveling alone really helps. Its like solving a puzzle in some people’s country. The difficulties of not speaking their native language really kick the challenge. I do think I do some philanthropist work. I believe helping others would help them less sad like me.  Working is important to me. Pretty safe to say, I’m a workaholic. I like to keep my job complete. Unless, I’m very tired or I really dislike doing it.

Advice to those with Depression. For those who can afford therapy, then go for it. For those who don’t, then share it. I believe it is best to get therapy and talk it out. It loosen the brain pain. Lastly, try and get a religion. It might help your life with a living purpose.